Confidence in weakness

Soon after starting my job working full-time at a church leading and planning worship, I was asked to take the personality test (ours was called the DISC profile). I certainly don't let those kind of tests dictate how I should act or what I should do at work, but I think they do hold some truth that can be helpful personally, and for your co-workers.

My DISC came back saying that I display some pretty heavy introverted qualities (no big shock there), while the rest of my co-workers all had the exact similar DISC results--pretty strong extroverts.

Needless to say they were somewhat surprised that the Introvert could do the things that my job requires me to do on Sunday mornings. Feeling comfortable in the spotlight (I realize the spotlight is on God, but the point is, I'm in front of people, speaking, singing, leading, etc.), being open and vulnerable in front of others, speaking publicly (and just speaking in general--the Introvert can be rather word deficient at times!), and feeling energized by interactions with people are all crucial aspects of what I do. But they do not come naturally to the Introvert me, AT ALL! But here's the part that fills me with assurance: somehow I am consistently able to do the unnatural, and I am able because HE is able. This has makes me even more confident that my responses of worship are authentic because I am operating from a place of weakness, humility, and reliance on Him.

The times where I fail at my job, my relationships, and life, are when I am relying on my own strength. But I am so grateful that the Lord has give me the qualities of an Introvert, because they remind me every Sunday morning that I'm going to an unnatural place, and I have a gut check to see how much I'm depending on Him. So even for the something as simple as the introverted worship leader, Luke 1:37 is still true!